Your job is the tradeoff

Ive just realised the truth about my workplace, it is the tradeoff in my journey in Pune. But there are some principles that i need to abide by, it is a staid policy, it is the unsaid rule. It is like DYWorks when it comes to work and serviceplan when it comes to play. So play it well. Enjoy this time that you have to yourself, enjoy the tradeoff and plan better and plan meticulously whatever it is. This is just going to be like Serviceplan but you will have to become better in your academics. Its like everything that you wanted for the past 2 years is being served to you on a platter and you;re feeling weird to taste it. You know it that you can make yourself faster and more productive but the motivation is not driving you to do it. The best principle is to do something before you’re even asked to do it. Whats the worst that can happen if you’re unprepared> get fired and back to Delhi. Wow, somehow the thing about all that is somehow feeling with much relief. It just hit you didnt it, that you were all this time searching the tradeoff, the job is the tradeoff, the only thing thats going to weed you off is that my personality is something that won’t let it go because its something that you enjoy doing, but now you must let it go and concentrate on your academics. Making money is not the forte here, and neither is yours but through academics and sport, i can start becoming the person that i wanted to be, the person that i visualized. The problem is that my opposing inspiration is at lack here among the poor and the poor taste. The beauty is deficient.

Do your homework

Havent you realised about yourself that your so unprepared to take the work that you’ve been doing. Can you put in the extea hours instead of just whiling away time and consolidate your presence in this field. You’ve just been galavanting and don’t really know what you’re supposed to do. Your opinion is really not mattering anymore. Where is your homework. Sonam and Shashank are going to be reaching you soon and telling you something but where is your homework. You havent been doing your homework and only focusing on your household work for too long now. Arent you done with it actually and want to proceed to take your career and work in the forefront

im in the passenger seat

what a work it is, ru thinking about what Richa said about joining ImaginXp, just imagine that ur in this small city with small city problems and ur able to do the work that is engaging and you enjoy the thing but there is something that is bothering you isnt it Vaibhav, there is that certain bit of disconnect and angst and anxiety that whether this would happen or not. Do you feel that you’re underpaid. Vaibhav, you know what was the thing just 3 years back. And it seems that you havent progressed much from there. Since the time i have joined this place, it just seems that im playing catch up and there isnt truly something that im able to drive on my own. I was in the drivers seat but recently i feel im in the passenger seat for some reason. Can you shift back to the drivers seat. Can i feel that personable thing to do. Im feeling so silent and its becasue i feel that I was silenced. But isnt this profession 1% work and 99% justification. It is, and you know it, but somehow im feeling the passenger seat feeling.

My world is collapsing

why is shouvik leaving affecting you so much Vaibhav, because somehow i feel that im one of the reasons of him leaving. Is that so. I feel a little confused and taken aback with all this. plus the after effects of being here at Elephant Design is also affecting me, there are some very alarming things that are affecting me, like for example, is there any stress or problems that is going to happen on my job or am i going to ever be normal again. The money is also a great problem and somehow i feel that im coping with problems rather than being on top of it. The reason being that i dont feel like im on top of my game. Everything is turning out to be non-masala and disconnected. I dont know how i feel and im feeling anxious. As if my self-worth is no more and my interests are waning and im collapsing. I feel with all this emptiness like my world is collapsing, i am definitely a proponent of my grandmother with nothing to prove. Have you ever pursued excellence Vaibhav, excellence in your field, and does excellence ever have a resounding thing in your life.